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[15 Dec 2005|04:39pm] |
broke up with her while still being in love with her
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| i confess... |
[15 Dec 2005|09:10pm] |
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addicted - kelly clarkson |
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i confess that i wanted to give you up.
i wanted to erase you from my thoughts,
my photo albums,
my phone book, all of my poems.
i confess i think things would be different if i didn't know you.
sure, that might sound selfish. but you cause me so much pain and love at once that its overwhelming and it makes me break down. i broke down because of you. i hurt myself because of you. i needed someone to hate.
trust me, i didn't plan for any of this to happen. i didn't ask to walk into this hell. i love you, but you're just killing me now. making me kill myself. you're worth everything, but at the same time i honestly have no idea who you are. so how can i even say you're worth it. I DON'T KNOW YOU.
why am i addicted?
because i needed someone to make me feel. i was so desperate for any feeling, because i've been numb for so long. you gave me that feeling and i couldn't take it. i've dug myself into this hole, but you had the other shovel. i can't breathe thinking about you. why am i like this?
i confess, i hate the way i love you.
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