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[04 Jun 2006|01:31am] |
I confess...
That I don't care about anything anymore. I'm really fucked up these days. I'm starting to become anorexic/bulimic. Not to mention the fact that I'm starting to have horrible Ideas in my head. Another thing that I confess to is that I'm so damn happy that I'm no longer friends with Jibby. She was starting to get on my nerves because she denys everything bad about her. She claims that she's this really nice girl. Which is a total lie. I mean come on how the hell can you be such a nice person when you finally tell a lie about almost everything. Well that's all I have for now catch you girls and guys later and I hope you all are doing better than I am! ^_^
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[04 Jun 2006|10:46pm] |
i confess that i'm jelous and upset that my ex likes someone new.
i confess that i hate how he's been ignoring me for about a week now.
i confess that i want to have sex with him again. just one more time. a one nigth stand, i don't care.
i confess that i can't get him off my mind, but that i know i should be thinking of my bf.
i confess that i don't really like my bf anymore, but im going to stick with him till prom (june29).
i confess that i feel so ugly, yet deep down i'm screaming "no i'm not ugly! i'm beautiful!"
i confess that i want to be dating someone else. anyone else.
i confess that i think my bf is an asshole and i can't stand him most of the time. i hate the way he talks, the words he uses, the music he listens to, the way he always says "ooohhh ffuuuuccckk yyyeeeeeeaahh"...
i confess that i don't want to do anything sexual with my bf, especially sex. i don't even want to hold his hand!
i confess that i only want to be with him. with my ex. when people ask me what i want i can hear my every inside scream his name.
i confess that i know that i need to get over him, and i want to, but i find it so hard. i don't want to let go. i keep dreaming he'll come back to me. that he'll change his mind and realize he wants to be with me.
i confess that i want to make him jelous, any way possible.
i confess that i rather be somewhere else than here right now. i rather be dead than remember the last 6 months of my life.
i confess that i'm COMPLETLY and utterly FUCKING CONFUSED!
...i want to crawl under my covers and never come up.
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