| Crazy |
[03 Oct 2006|08:41pm] |
I think we all want to go crazy sometimes. I think we all feel crazy sometimes. I have felt myself going crazy-it is scary. There was a but. Is a but. I can't do it. I can't go all the way; I can't completely lose my mind. For some reason that really seriously makes me sad. Like, I don't cry, but it makes me want to cry anyway kind of sad. It seems like I should have it as a right or something. Like everyone should be able to, why can't I?
It is an escape that is denied me. So I have to go back to denying myself in other ways.
I am sure I will wake up one day. I know I don't have enough time to get it done. I am not even sure what it is I have to do. I know that I have to try and I know that I am not. I am still waiting. I know it is time to stop waiting. I am not sure how to.
good luck, everyone
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